challenge accepted

1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you were truly honest with someone? What was it about?
7) Post your favorite quote.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Write about your relationship status.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/ secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) What did you eat today?
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) Find a horoscope site and post yours.
23) Post your Tumblr crushes.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write about your first kiss.
26) Write about your best/ favorite kiss.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

day one

Post 15 facts about yourself.

1. I’ve had the same cat for 15 years and she still acts like a kitten.

2. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life, but who does?

3. I agree with Mrs. Banks in that: “though we adore men individually, we agree that as a group they’re rather stupid.”

4. Girls are no smarter, though more graceful.

5. I was born poor, rose to the middle class, and now am sitting pretty at poor once again.

6. I feel as if I’m destined for more-just can’t figure out how much more.

7. I’m not pleased with many things I have done in the past, I can assuringly say that I’ve done less things I’m pleased with than things I’m not pleased with.

8. Reinventing yourself is much more difficult than it sounds; however, I’m attempting to do so.

9. I am currently filtering out the poisons in my life.

10. I’ve said I love you to only one boyfriend and didn’t mean it.

11. The explanation to the prior, I feel, is due to my falling in love with ideas rather than people.

12. I’ve only had the pleasure of knowing few genuinely good people besides my mom, brother, and best friends.

13. I used to feel that I needed a drink in order to become my real self. Not when I am drunk, but when I loosen up. A thought that I’m realizing is far from the truth.

14. I have many “friends” but not so many human beings as friends. They are more of clones than anything else.

15. I have not stumbled upon any interesting facts about myself that are worth writing, so I only shared my thoughts instead.

day two

Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.

Please don’t steal any of the following photos. These are all personal photos that belong to my friends.

George King V: My best friend since his birth, we’ve known each other our entire lives. He’s seen me at my best & worst, my innocence & loss thereof. Our mothers are best friends, and we can’t seem to break the tradition. Although we’ve drifted this past year, every time we see each other it’s as if nothing has changed. Our lives are tearing us in different directions, but I know deep down we’ll never stop loving each other. He’ll always be my fff.

Stephanie Dedal: A string of bump-ins have brought us together through our entire lives. We became best friends around five years ago, however we’ve met each other more than three times all by coincidence, but some may call it fate. I first met her in a play place-defending my right to party, losing ultimately. Then again, at a basketball festival. And once more, at a battle of the bands show. Although we didn’t know it at the time, or even recognize each other from these various meetings, we’ve become inseperable. It would be hard to imagine my life without her, and I don’t think I’d ever want to experience it after going through so much with her. We’re completely different people, but compliment each other in so many ways. I love her with all my heart.

Rebecca Krikorian: One crazy night after the other-this girl will most likely always take the position for my partner in crime. I don’t think anyone could fully understand how much we’ve been through together. She’s one insane woman, but that’s what makes me love her so much. She’s the type of girl that you know has your back without a doubt. She’s been one of my truest friends and I will always respect and appreciate her for that. We may not be as close now, but after all we’ve gone through, we have had a closer relationship than lots of people have in their entire lives. She’s gone through a lot in her life and has become someone I can honestly say I’m proud of. She’ll always be an inspiration to me and can make one hell of a complex character in a book.

Christine Avalos: Christine has always been close to me. She’s more in touch with her spiritual side than anyone I know. She can be a flake at times, but she means well. Her free spirit approach to everything sends off such amazingly refreshing vibes that it’s always a good time when I hang out with her. She’s good at listening but great at talking. Her thoughts come out as poetry and she has the hands of an artist. Sometimes the muse, she’s beautiful and so full of happiness it’s hard to believe she’s real. I love her to pieces even though sometimes she can just drive me insane. Her only downfall is that she needs to stop messing with boys and start interacting with men. No more scrubs.

Dino Vajraca: Sometimes I have felt that Dino is the only one that ever really understood me. I’ve never felt judged, hurt, or sad because of him. I know he’s always there for me and I miss him so much it hurts at times. He’s never one to leave you unimpressed. His soul is one of a kind and is treasured by most, if not all, that have had the pleasure of meeting him. Words honestly cannot express how near and dear I hold him to my heart, although I do not always show it. I would deeply regret not ever meeting him and can assuringly say my life is more complete with him in it. He will remain my siggy, forever and always.

day three

If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

I would hop into a time machine and do it all over again.

day four

Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.

I would have to say my childhood was definitely the fondest period of time in my life. Anything was possible and everything seemed to be going according to plan. It could have been my childlike view of things or my naivety but it was a happy period powered by imagination. Christmas was jollier, Halloween was more festive, Easter still involved bunnies, and my birthdays still involved jump houses. Glitter and paint were part of my wardrobe and bubbles were a past time. Tea parties were always in season and Disney movies were always playing in the background. Actually, Disney movies still always play in the background. Boys had cooties-some still do, and parents seemed to have the answers to all of my life’s worries.

My childhood, without a doubt, is the last period in my life where things were constantly going good.

day five

Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.

In the middle of my relationship with my first boyfriend, he had to move away to Seattle. We tried long distance because we were young believed it would work, and it did, for some time. He would fly down and surprise me every couple months, but it was hard for both of us to commit to something like that.

One night, I woke up to yelling between my parents. I broke them up and told my dad to go into the garage and cool off while my mom sits on the couch. I started packing a suitcase for my dad with a note that told him if he wanted to have a relationship with me, he would have to make the effort. Meanwhile, I heard my mom go into the garage. By the time I reached them, there was blood on his arm and on her chest. I told my mom to go inside and I handed my dad the suitcase. While he was leaving he kept yelling to me, “Don’t let her brainwash you!” For some time after that, my mom would want me to sleep with her for security, I’m assuming, because at night I would hear her wake up and look around for him, or while still asleep call his name.

My boyfriend and I broke up shortly after that. Male figures in my life weren’t assuring at this time, especially because my brother and I weren’t as close then. While at the mall, my cousin and I almost got into a collision with anther car. When we looked to see who was in it, there was my dad. We looked straight at each other for some time then he drove away. Private investigators had come to our house disguised as carpet cleaners for some time and others were more blunt about their work-both asking for the whereabouts of my father. Apparently someone else was looking for him. My mom began taking me on searches for him at various hotels. It was a wild goose chase that got us no where. He used all of our money and we had to claim bankruptcy. We lost our house and I think since then I’ve moved around six times while having to share a room with my mom.

I haven’t seen my dad for six years. And he hasn’t seen his daughter grow up. Apparently he’s come out of hiding and has been talking to my aunt. He took her copy of my senior portrait from her and that will probably be his only portal to my life. I can’t say that I’ve had it rough, because I know there are people out there in the world that have it a lot worse. A dad leaving his family sounds so miniscule in the big picture. I’ve learned from it and am moving on-it’s just hard for my mother to see the same.

day six

When was the last time you were truly honest with someone? What was it about?

As an aries, I am a typically honest and blunt person. I’m honest about most everything. A more accurate question would be when was the last time I was dishonest with someone. The most recent would have to be last night when I told my cousin to hurry up because I had to wake up early. The dishonesty lying in the “I have to wake up early” part.

If the question is referring to a more “spill my soul” honesty, then probably around March-April to my best friend. I’m not entirely comfortable sharing the subject on which I spilled my soul to her considering only a handful of people know. It was a difficult time where I had to make a nearly impossible decision, that I’m unsure now was the right one.

day seven

Post your favorite quote.

It is impossible for me to choose only one favorite quote. Anaïs Nin and Oscar Wilde have been the minds behind many of my favorites, so I’ll leave one for each that come to mind right now.

Oscar Wilde: “We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.”

Anaïs Nin: “I must be a mermaid, Rango. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.”

day eight

How do you feel today?

I feel about the same as every other day. A little more nostalgic than usual. I mainly just realized that the past twenty years have gone by so quickly. It sounds silly, but it was mostly induced by watching a documentary on the 2010 World Series. Buster Posey is only a couple years older than me and has already achieved his dream.

I took a step back to get perspective on my own life and I’m in college, but I’m not sure if I really want to be here. I believe more than anything in the power and importance of knowledge and I love to learn; but I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have a few goals:

1. Travel the world-not just typical tourist sightseeing. I want to be fully immersed in every culture I have the pleasure of experiencing. Along with just travelling, I would like to be able to live in another country or countries.

2. Be successful in whatever I choose to make of with the rest of my life. My main goal is to be my own boss. I want to have the freedom to color outside of the lines if I choose to and express myself in any manner I wish to.

3. I would like, at some point, to have a stable family. The idea of having an extension of yourself to be able to fall back on is comforting. This applies with my mom and brother. They have been there for me my entire life and it would make me incredibly happy if they were blissful and stable in their own lives.

4. At some point in time I would like to finish one of the dozens of novels I have started to write. But before that, I would like to build up my writing skills. I’ve been lazy lately and my writing abilites have dwindled to nearly nothing.

5. I hope my cat will live forever. Although this may seem incredibly ridiculous now, I am almost certain she is some sort of extension of my soul. As many of you may not know, I have a very strong, unwavering soul that may/most certainly is immortal.

If it helps any, I’ve been listening to Whisper by A Fine Frenzy and Jesus, Etc. by Wilco all day.

day nine

What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?

A few months after my father left, my aunt and uncle became more prominent figures in my life. I hopped on a plane to Seattle and spent a summer with them. I’ve only had the pleasure of visiting New York, San Diego, and Disneyland is my closest thing to Los Angeles so you could say I’m sheltered. On the trip I stayed in a hostel for some time, visited museums, went to art festivals, and so much more. I don’t even believe my phone was on for much of the trip. My aunt actually has hated children her entire life, but always seemed to have a liking for me and after that trip we bonded a lot. A little after Christmas a few years ago, they sent me a package (once you turn 18, you’re cut off my gifts except with your immediate family), they thought this would by a sly way of bending the rules.

The package had an amazing photo of this woman on the streets of some far off land with all these beautifully colored yarns and her delicate, worn hands, I’m sure, could tell some eye-opening tales. They also included the cutest vintage pin cushion and a small compass. The card read, “The compass points north, that’s where we’ll be if you need us.”

That is the one thing that comes to mind. It wasn’t a compliment from some guy I won’t remember years from now, an apology from an old friend, or a nice run-in with a complete stranger-just simples words of comfort from a relative north of me.

day ten

What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?

I don’t pay attention to the negativity around me. If I had, I would be a hollow shell of a person. People will continuously attempt to put you down in hopes that they’ll see you fall, but your time, tears, and thoughts shouldn’t be wasted on pathetic excuses for people like them. The soulless have no place in the mind or heart.

With that being said, I can only think of one. A very mean girl started a rumor about me stealing her cat, which I absolutely did not do. I love my own kitty cat very much and would never put anyone, even this incredibly mean girl, through the pain of losing her own beloved cat. I may be many things, but I am not a cat thief. Anywho, a mutual friend of ours doesn’t know what she’s blabbing on about anyway, apparently she has her cat.

day eleven

Write about the best day of your life.

I can’t really recall one particular day that was the best of my life. I believe that my most enjoyable days have been in unfamiliar places or adding to my list of new experiences. My first days in Seattle or my first days in New York were amazing. I’ll also never forget the first time I saw the White House in person.

But there are a few days that I tend to gravitate towards familiarity. Disneyland always makes for a good day. Christmas with close friends and family have been good to me as well. I’ll have to build on this reflection. 

day twelve

Write about the worst day of your life.

The night I double booked on dinner dates and had to scarf down two dinners while keeping my composure.

day thirteen

What are your plans for the future? Far and near.

Refer to day eight.

day fourteen

Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.

I can’t really put my finger on my all-time favorite anything, so I’ll mention my favorites of the moment.

Book: The Devil in the White City

Movie: Mary Poppins

Band: The Strokes

Food: Spicy Chicken Sandwich